a belated happy festivus to everyone.

this is probably the most beneficial winter break ive ever had. normally i would think its one week too long. no no on this time. plenty of thinking/relearning about myself. plenty of having fun with my friends back home. it kind of amazes me how ive been able to preserve some of these high school friendships and it makes me glad. sometimes distance does things, on few occasions regrettable, but most of the time i can just pick up where i left off from the last encounter. thanks for the good times.

amongst many things i contemplated was the idea of being used. it probably truly hit me at the beginning of the school year, as id finally grown weary of it. most of the time guys cant tell when theyre simply being used by a girl, but for some strange reason, i think ive built up an awareness for it. one of my new years resolutions is to cut the bullshit sometimes and just deny their request. i know when to pick my battles. take that, gails theory on asian guys being whipped.

i wont deny having been institutionalized. im just not as weird as i used to be. sometimes thats a good thing, other times not so. perhaps im missing something.

total time spent driving over a span of 3 weeks: at least 15 hours. "air buddy in the club get tits."