three weeks remaining. i will endure it. i will. if my professors announced that taking finals next week was an option, all on the same day, id be willing to work my ass off to exercise that option. then the fun would commence and maybe i could for once do a few of the things on my to-do list. experiencing this warm weather here only teases a person to increase their desire for that great 100 degree dry air back at home. as for the to-do list, usually every summer i fall into the routine of feeling motivated to start a new day, to scrounging up something to look forward to. my sister and her friend made a point that just recently hit me, im a flake when it comes to committing to the things i say ill do. perhaps starting things one step at a time will lead to success. man this entry blows--

spring time is skin time. keep the beast down before explosion becomes imminent.

you know in biology, where organisms specifically adapted to their environment become well adjusted and best suited for that environment. those that specialize their adaptations the most also carry the greatest risk of dying, because they lose their versatility and resilience. those of you still puzzled about the quote that never leaves my profile, consider applying the mentioned scenario to it. change or be changed.

why do people talk shit on other people so easily. one could probably trace just the slightest bit of hypocrisy (actually, someone inform me of the extent of my hypocrisy). i think thats the part of me tainted by institutionalization. before, i was relatively laid back and if things annoyed me, id simply shrug it off. what the hell happened to that? perhaps thats the consequence of living with so many people within a close proximity. you know who i could learn from? aaron cocjin. after riding the amtrak with that guy i noticed, man this guy has THE prime attitude about everything. not a trace of worryness or bias or anything of that sort. time for self-improvement.

this post still blows. ill leave it here because i spent 20 minutes typing it and im not in the mood for easily disposing of all my hard rambling.