my absence from this blog has been extended, coinciding with the peak(s) of this summer. and from the peak everything goes downhill.

following the evolution/la trip the true dog days of summer kicked in and i found myself waning in boredom. the first thing freeing up my time was being fired from johns incredible pizza. psh , like they really needed me in assisting in their salad tossing. i prefer to call the incident a "dishonorable discharge" because i had the opportunity to save myself from doom with a simple phone call. i knew i would have needed almost a full week off to chill with the chums in berkeley. after much painstaking self-deliberation, i reasoned my getting fired with a "meh". little did i know that by sacrificing (or freeing up if you will) my weekends would fill them with downtime. and by downtime i mean doing absolutely nothing. there really was nothing to look forward to except playing cards. hooooooldzem.

for awhile i resorted back to a state of melancholy. lots of time spent sitting around and thinking. the snowball effect kicked in and for some idiotic reason i concluded that the only thing that could not only bail me out of boredom, but also leave me in prolonged happiness was finding the ultimate girlfriend. for most of the school year and summer up until this point, i was successful in keeping this annoying feeling down and making sure i was content with life and my friends. cue the pessimism, and maybe a little desperation.

before i knew it, it was already time for the berkeley trip. this short four day vacation from vacation was something i really needed. i realized id forgotten after the la trip how good it felt to be with all of my friends.

i am truly grateful. thanks all, this only contributed to the best summer ever.

as for "shedding inhibitions"...that whole experience actually kind of taught me a few things. yyyyeahhh, perhaps i should put just a little more faith in myself. good times.